What a catastrophe of a day. We played a League Cup match today against FC Lahti. I played the last 30 minutes or so and was absolutely terrible. Of course, I wouldn’t be a good whiner if I didn’t blame some of my performance on the lack of service from my teammates. I literally touched the ball maybe a half dozen times total in 30 minutes. To make matters worse, the coach (who yelled at everybody) yelled at me constantly to “wake up!”
One thing that I’ve noticed since I’ve been here is that the coaches seem to want me to be something I’m not. Despite the fact that I played great in a two striker set during both training sessions, I was thrown into the match today as a lone striker. Both of the center backs on the other team were big, physical players and they dominated me in the air. The whole time I was in the game I never received a pass to my feet or into a space where I could get it. I did have one bright moment when I intercepted a pass in midfield and carried the ball to the edge of the box before laying it to the winger, who promptly crossed it out of bounds for a goal kick. It was that kind of day for myself and the team.
I haven’t spoken to the coach but I don’t anticipate getting good news. While it’s still possible that my performances in training will earn me a contract, it’s more likely that the match performance undermined my chances. If so then I’m not too concerned since I’m not too big on the idea of playing here anyway. I think my next move will be to go to Sweden, since my name is probably losing a bit of weight in the finnish league. I’ve been essentially cut by two teams and MYPA would be the third so I don’t know what my options will be with other clubs in the league. I’ve had trial offers in Sweden before so hopefully I can arrange one or two this week and next. I would prefer to live in Sweden anyway, so maybe things will still work out for the best after all.
Tomorrow is likely a travel day, so I’ll be in touch soon but maybe not tomorrow.