Bad news today as I found out that I won’t get a contract
from Jaro. I am not totally surprised,
since I played very poorly in my first test match. When I saw that I was not starting the second
match, I got the feeling that my chances weren’t so good. Even then, I played well in the second match
against VPS and my confidence is pretty high considering I’ve got no club and
as of this very second no trials either.
I know I can play in Europe. I’ve
seen the players who have contracts and I’ve done well against them. I’ve been in the trainings and matches and
had success. Sometimes it’s difficult
though to be a trialist. You have to be
amazing just to be considered.
On that note, I have to say that as time goes on I find
being a trialist gets easier mentally.
Years ago, a trial would make me freak out and I could hardly play. I never took any time to enjoy Denver when I
was drafted to the Rapids nor did I take much time to enjoy some other places
I’ve been. Now, I just play relaxed and
let my talent show. If it doesn’t work,
it doesn’t work. There’s no reason for
me to dwell on it and I understand that.
That doesn’t mean that I don’t worry sometimes about my future, but in
the grand scheme of things it could be worse.
I’m in Europe chasing a dream.
More accurately I should say I’m in Europe chasing the first step of my
dream. Right now I’m a bit stressed
because I honestly don’t know where I’ll be tomorrow. I won’t mention the clubs that I am talking
to now but they are my only hints as to where I could potentially spend the
next few years of my life. And if something
can’t be arranged with those clubs who knows?
Sometimes it’s fun to not know what’s coming next, but when it’s your
career or your life, the guessing game isn’t so much fun. But I have money in the bank right now so
I’ll be going on trials wherever they’ll take me until I get a contract
somewhere. I’m still hopeful that I will
end up in a good situation where I’m happy.
I know of quite a few places that are more appealing to me than
Jakobstad or Valkeakoski, Finland.
That’s all I’ve got for now. I’ll keep you all posted as to what happens
next!
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